A NObody!

What do you do when people you are close to treat you like you are a nobody? Like you are nothing to them, or that they can use you when they need you and, who cares about your feelings and needs, it's all about them. You give and give and sacrafice and sacrafice and all you get in return is NOTHING! I guess when you are a nothing to someone that is what you get from them.... nothing.

Maybe that is how you know what you mean to someone, is by what they treat you as in return.

If they treat you with respect and love and compassion and caring, you know they respect, love and care for and about you. If they treat you like a phone, use you when they need you and know you are always around for whatever they need so they don't have to worry about showing you that they need you around. What would happen if all of a sudden one day you just weren't there for them? IF you just decided to not be around and actually be the "nothing" they treat you as. Would they ever realize how they treat you? Would they ever realize that you actually DO mean something to them, that they actually DO need you?

Would they ever realize they treated you like you were a nothing to them and that they blew it, and may never get to make up for it again.

Is it right to do that to them? To MAKE them see what they are doing? Should you ever let them in again to possiblly, once again, treat you that way, or would they? If they say they made a mistake and realized what a treasure you are to their life and wouldn't be anywhere without you, could it truely be possible for them to fall back into seeing you as a "nothing" again?

Honestly.... that is my question. Why can it happen again, why does it happen again?

WHY?!!

......... you tell me.

ANTS!!!!!

Wow what a surprise I got today as I walked in my apartment and headed to the kitchen. There to my surprise was a pile of ants that followed a path of ants around my bar to the front door by the wall to the patio window and finally ending/starting at the fireplace. Oh and a nice pile or 4 under the white paper recycle bag! How lovely these little creatures came to visit me and surpruse me, and it's not even my birthday yet. Silly bugs, so forgetful. :)
So out came the RAID and the vacuum. Those suckers didn't know what was coming, what hit them, and what killed them and sent them to their dusty, dirty demise. Bwahhhahaha!!

So today was a nice wonderful day! I didn't have to wear clinic clothes because I didn't have to go to clinic. I didn't see any patients today and so I had a day off to just relax and be comfy! :)

So here's to a comfy weekend and day tomorrow.
Love you all ~Allison

Dealing with the world

So I am really having to learn how to deal with people who are Christian but don't care how they live in HIS world. They live for themselves, as I know I do because I am human, and seem to only care about their actions when people question them as to their faith. How frustrating it is to me! Why can't people want to live for the Lord every day all the time in their thoughts as well as their actions? That is what is seen by the non believers and other believers alike, our actions. Wouldn't you think that that would be your first concern is how Christ in your life was being portrayed through you? Maybe I am a loner in this or a hard nose but I know that Christ wants you to live for Him and through him. Pretty sure living for myself and for MY worldly needs is not living for God.
Just something I have dealt with for a long time and it never seems to go over well with me till I can forget about it after a few days.

So just a venting blog today. Thanks.

On a better note I have an awesome patient that brought me cookies today. They are peanut butter and oatmeal. OH SO YUMMY!! So, a perk of being an intern now, doctor later. The people you help thank you by baking for you. Ahh the joys of hometown people. :) hehe.

Love ya.

My first bbbbbblog

Well no other way to start it off than in PURPLE! So today was like every Monday, 2 labs in the morn. (8-12) and then clinic at 12, then class at 1 then last lab from 3-5. Finally my patient comes in at 5:00 and am done by 5:45. The co-ed tri 6 softball team plays Monday nights and so went to their game which use to be at 7:30 but was moved to 8:30pm. Thank goodness for the time change or I would reallly be dying. So that's my normal, every day routine, boring but that's how school life can be, mundane but always an adventure. Clinic is AWESOME!!! I definitely know THIS is what I am called to be doing. ~Blessings