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Friday, August 19, 2005

Great JOYS in Life.....

I use to think that I would have a perfect life, be totally happy and be complete in life when I was married to the man of my dreams. Having children will be the icing but the biggest task was to have found that ONE. The one who is your other half and who just makes you know you are YOU just by loving you.
I have always had happiness with the true blessings in my life that were positioned along the way to finding that "totally happy" place/person. My life has been so IMMENSELY blessed with the family I was born into and the friends that have been along my path. WOW, I have been blessed without even asking or truly looking! Friends and friendships have always come into my life pretty easily and most have stuck very closely to my heart.

There are always those movies you see where, at the end, the girl finally gets to be with THE boy who has caught her eye and who seems to be so RIGHT; or even the guy getting the perfect girl of his dreams who he never really knew he was looking for. The perfect ending to a beautiful movie. Makes you leave feeling all full of love and at the same time, well for me (not having that path completed yet), feeling more lonely and heart stricken for that ONE SPECIAL person who is suppose to fit that space. Those movies make you feel as if there is that true romance out there and you could have it.
Then reality hits you the next day when you are back to the REAL grind of the world and guys just aren't romantic....or at least in YOUR life they aren't. You start to think that you are just going to have to settle for Mr. "who is right for you right now", whether he not be too romantic or charming or.... well you get my drift. (Do guys have this feeling too sometimes; where they just want the right girl out there who is... well I don't know, what do guys want THE "girl"?)

So the other day I was watching this movie with my friend and the ending was totally different than all those sappy love story movies, "Miss Congeniality 2." In the first one, it ended in the whole love story ending where she gets the guy/ he gets the girl scenario, ahh romantic; "You think I'm sexy. You want to hug me.... blah blah," BUT this one is so different. In the end they push for, "what is more important than having that "guy" in your life is having a friend to lean on and to save you when you are drowning." You feel like you are here to help save people and no one seems to think you need saving. No one has truly thought to save you or look out for you, when all of a sudden here they come. A friend as shiny as silver, but more precious than gold comes and saves your life.
I finally had a movie that made me see I have that perfect life, the totally happy life and that is complete and full. I have moments where I realize how blessed I have been with friends and family, but until this movie's ending, I never really understood what I truly had. It was nice to finally see a movie that supported friends as being the one thing in life you need to have that perfect life, NOT a guy.

Now don't get me wrong. I still am waiting for that Mr. Wonderland to come sweep me off my feet and romantize my future and make me his Allison Wonderland.... but I have realized while I am waiting, I am perfectly happy and complete in my life with the friends God has given me along the way. And if I should never be wed and die and aunt and sister to all, my life will have been FULLY complete for I was loved by many and loved many because of all who were placed in my life to carry me and keep me company along the way.

So thank you all, friends and family who are near and far from me physically today, for being in my life and loving me as perfect friends and family should. You have made my life perfect, totally happy and ABSOLUTELY COMPLETE!!

May God bless you all because you have done what He has sent you to do for me in my life... bless me.

THANK YOU
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~Allison