Can you truely get over the past

So I have a few quotes posted in my bathroom so I can remind myself of positive things while I am getting ready each morning. It actually is a great thing that helps me. One of the ones I have up there now is from Romans 12:18,
"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone."
I got to thinking about people and times in my life where I have to remind myself of this. And usually the quote that follows is the other one that is on my wall from Hebrews 10:36.
"You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

So my blog tonight is this:
Are there always going to be people in your life that you never get over? People who did you wrong once, even though inside they are a good person, they just did you wrong once. Or what if they didn't really wrong YOU but someone close to you and those feelings are there? Do you ever get over those feelings towards those people?

I am thinking of a few people from my past that spark uncomfortable feelings within me whenever I encounter them, physical and nonphysical. There is a person who wronged me and his/her friends are acquaintances of mine, but these friends now rarely talk to me or acknowledge me because of the weirdness between us. I think this person feels I wronged them too (which in my eyes I TOTALLY didn't). The problem/concern I have with all of this is will this weirdness ever go away? Is it always going to be like this because of the past.

I always wondered about class reunions and such. You go back after you are all married with kids and have a great life totally better than high school life, and are friends with everyone because it all doesn't even matter anymore.

I guess my point is, I have a few people who just get to my feelings whenever I think of them or see them (picture or person) and I hate that. I don't want to have anything against anyone, even if I felt they did me, or someone close to me, wrong in the past. It's in the past and I constantly remind myself of the Romans verse, "live at peace with EVERYONE," to get my feelings away from that, but it seems to never change.

Why is it this way? Do they even feel that way about me or towards me, after all these years when they have a great life as well?

Ex's and "moment" friends (where they are only your friend for a moment and then it's gone) How do they keep such a hold on your life, your feelings, your thoughts? and I don't mean these feelings are all good ones, two of the three aren't.

Does anyone else have this problem? Am I a total clench-er who needs some therapy to deal with some past issues? Seriously, I feel like people shouldn't spark such a reaction inside of me, like they do, when it's all in the past.

So goodnight and I wait for any suggestions to help. : )

P.S.
I want to apologize for my horrible run-ons and grammar. I have never been good with English and fear I never will.

How do you feel?

So I am sitting here in a Starbucks in St. Joseph, MO and I had to get extra chi flavoring because my soy chi was basically a soy late with chi. The little cup they gave me with the extra flavoring was this,

"History without war, a good plan for the future." - Nancy Wilson.

And then I thought of the quote by whom I can't remember,

"If we do not learn from our past, we are doomed to repeat it."

Isn't it a sad sign of today's times where we are repeating our past. It seems our government and country have not learned from our past or tried to learn from the past of our neighboring countries to know how to make peace and stay in peace. I always saw this quote as an explanation of why fashion trends always came back around. Knowing this fact in the 90's, I prayed the 80's style would never come back around, most of us did. OH MY GOSH, we are witnessing the 80's come back and there is no stopping it!

The first time I saw leggings under a skirt on a mannequin in a mall I freaked out. NO! SAY IT ISN'T SO! All I could see after that was a side pony tail, crimped hair and double layered socks in different colors with Keds. The kids in our youth group did and 80's theme and I felt so old. Must have been what my parents felt like when the "flare" pants and "Capris" came back into style.

Please learn from the mistake of the fashion style of the 80's and JUST SAY NO! : )

Back on the serious note of the first two quotes together, I pray for our country so badly. I almost cry at how things have turned out and where they are headed. Where has the brotherly love gone where we protect our neighbor and respect their rights? We profess freedom of speech and right to believe what you want, and then turn around and make people who are not like the greedy American to be just like us, to believe just like us.

I had a classmate in a Worlds Religions class who was Muslim. She told us about when she lived in her country where this war is all going on, and they would protect each other no matter what religion. Christianity was the minority religion over there. She talked about her neighbors who were Hindu on one side and Christian on the other. One day people set out to get all the Christians out of their land and the neighborhood helped protect the Christians on their block because that's what they did. They all lived in HARMONY with each other. They respected each other as they would want respect for their own beliefs.

Another quote we learn when we are kids and can use it for so much deeper meaning,

"Treat others as you would want to be treated. Do unto others as you would have done unto you."

We need to heed our own advice and take a look at ourselves and reflect on who we are. I use to be PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN, now, I am not so sure how I feel. Maybe after living in another country I would have a definite opinion again, but these past few years, esp. this year, I just don't know how I feel.


How about you?

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